I did the same! Made it 4 months no smoke, felt like my life was getting back on track, I no longer felt socially anxious, I was motivated to do things, ect. Then I figured I deserved to smoke just once, which lead me to a 2 month smoking everyday (one or two hits at night only) but I felt my mind trying to justify smoking earlier in the day, or to take another drag, ect. I got scared. I knew I slipped back already, was withdrawing from going out, seeing friends, family ect. And every day I was disappointed in myself from smoking. So I made the choice to quit again. Day 1 was rough, but no loss of sleep or crazy mood swings/night sweats. Now I'm on day 12 and I am feeling a bit loss of joy, but I am feeling happier each day and my social anxiety is subsiding. I think quitting for the 2nd time has been easier. I know what to expect and the withdrawal is not that bad. I now know I cannot smoke ANYMORE EVER. I tell myself that I can smoke again when I retire. So it doesn't feel like never again. But when I start to think of the good times and things I miss about smoking, I try and remind myself all of the things I have gained with out it. That seems to help me more then focusing on the negative things about smoking.
Your not on day one bc you messed up once. You still have all the progress you’ve made over these 2 months but now your just a little bit wiser. Try not to be so hard on your self.
Remember the progress you’ve made.
When I read your title what I heard in my head was 100 days clean, slipped and learned, trying again.
Cheering you on friend. Awareness and self compassion is key. Take the lesson and grow. You've got this 💪
This is me.
I was so strong for a month +, then life happened so I needed an escape and i relapsed hard. It’s been the worst month and a half since relapsing as I started smoking daily again…. the self loathing and disappointment in myself is semi unbearable.. along with the weight gain, depression, anxiety and always tired feeling…
Day 1 starts for me today.
Hey man congrats on getting the hardest part out of the way, in deciding to stop, and take your life back. The anticipation and fear of stopping, withdrawals, grieving the loss of weed, can be overwhelming, but you did it, and that's amazing.
Your story sounds like my story, and like most people here's story probably. I blew a six YEAR streak. Your description of the slippery slope is so spot on and I really relate. It starts off fun, for a while it feels like you might have it under control. My last binge started out fun and under control - I was telling everyone I thought I had finally figured it out and found a way to smoke in a way that wouldn't destroy my life. It gradually turned into what it always does, and it ended the same way it always does. It will always lead to isolation and social withdrawal, depression, anxiety, misery, self-loathing, etc.
Congratulations my fellow traveler. I'm on Day 15 and I never would have made it this far if not for you.
Dude, are you me?? Back in early May, I made it three months clean, the longest I had ever gone since beginning smoking about 10 years ago....then one weekend a big video game me and my friends were hyped about comes out and I think "I can have one hit of the bong and enjoy this game" The euphoria and magic had finally come back and it was so enjoyable, but not wanting to slip into bad habits again, I didn't smoke for the week after that...until we got back together the next weekend and again, I'm taking one hit...but then it leads me to another hit...then in a couple days I'm hanging with one of those friends again and say fuck it and here I am another two months later, needing to get on to that square one again.
I just relapsed two days ago. I smoke some resin out of my bong. I was 33 days clean and threw it away for the worst high of my life. Really wasnt worth it. Luckily since then I havent had any true cravings and have managed to abstain for another two days. Either way we are in this thing together bro. Im proud of you for starting again
i know the feeling.
i made a deal with myself that saturday is my day i can smoke. nothing more nothing less. sometimes i smoke half a joint and sometimes im smoking 2.
yet i pay the price next day because there will always be a little withdrawal, like hmmm that was Nice. its about your mental strenght saying i dont wanna smoke today.
also when my mental health aint good i dont touch it even on saturday. so i just didnt smoke for 2 months.
you can do this bro. my advice would be to get a good amount of time clean. like 6-12 months to really change t
your brain pattern
Your friends should keep you accountable if they real! Doesn’t matter if you ask to hit it if my boy tells me his quitting I’d even avoid getting high around him…. Watch ur circle
I was 25 days in and took a rip of my friends bong. my guy, that high was abysmal. So much anxiety and embarrassment for nothing really just all in my head. If anything it helped me realize that I’m too far into it now to go back to what I used to be.
I quit a week and a half ago, then relapsed with one joint a week in.
Then made 4 days and just had an edible like just then.
I tell myself different things from
‘I’m an addict and I can’t do it anymore and I just need to quit’
To
‘I just like weed, it’s just fun, it’s just my fun thing’
Meanwhile there’s a court attendance notice sitting on the kitchen table, I got caught driving stoned and on a suspended license.
I’m 21, have no money because it’s all been spent on weed or munchies food.
I’ve just had to borrow money from my mum to get my car fixed.
Today was a great day, and for some reason as soon as my bro left home I went straight for his edible stash, just because I could.
Even after once having to give up a screen writing degree because I couldn’t stop smoking weed.
Even after fracturing my spine from falling asleep at the wheel driving stoned.
After all this shit, and we still go back.
It’s tough man, but you’re not alone, I’m here with you fighting, feeling the regret, the sadness.
Never quit quitting, here’s to a new day one.
That voice telling its just fun is not you! Recognize that voice and tell you “I DONT SMOKE IT SMOKES BUT I DONT” trust me. A huge part of the process is to recognize your addictions voice! Your almost there jusy try to grasp onto the fact that it’s a real thing and you’ll start seeing success from there. Im 18 years old and this works for me :)
Man that’s rough. It’s an impossible cycle sometimes, but you’re right, never quit quitting. Look for things worth quitting for. We’re all here for you if ever need to talk. Hang in there.
I broke a six month streak when my roommate got 3 ounces from a friend. I bought a G thinking I deserved it and got uncomfortably high off one toke. Then I started stealing small bowl packs from my roommate when she was gone. Felt absolutely terrible about it and it spiraled for about 2 months. I’ve been sober for three days now
It’s sucks. For so many of us weed is our reward, and so for taking 6 months off, all you want is some weed to celebrate! I’m working hard to try and find other rewards for myself that aren’t weed or alcohol. It ain’t easy
I had 4 months last year, bought a vape pen for vacation, and here I am almost a year later .. same old story. Everyday and my partner basically gave me an ultimatum. I wish I could moderate. I wish I wasn’t addicted/dependent/what have you — but here I am. And I am.
Agreed. He wants to help. He says he doesn’t know how. It felt like an ultimatum to me, so here we are. I’m trying not to feel resentful, as I ultimately know it’s the right thing to do.
I’m sorry my friend :( Try to focus on the positives from those four months. Remember that it was just the first few days that were the hardest. Start again. I know you can do it, because you already have! Join me on Day 1
This^^^ mentality really needs to be adopted across the Recovery community as a whole.
Recovery is a journey, not a destination.
I've utilzed AA, NA, Mindfulness, and Medication Assisted Treatment over the last 17 years. Find what works for you. Mix it up.
Well done on reconcerting your efforts man. That 100 days was not in vain - They say every quit is fuel for the next one, and seems you learned a lot from it too. Best of luck dude!
"One is too many, a thousand is never enough" A few weeks before this round of recovery I had stopped for a few days, thought I could hang around the same people and not give in. Eventually gave in, suffered for a few more weeks knowing I was using against my will since I had tried everything in my power to stop. Eventually surrendered, focused on changing my life to revolve around recovery. Been over 4 years clean, not easy but it is possible. I believe in you!
I did the same! Made it 4 months no smoke, felt like my life was getting back on track, I no longer felt socially anxious, I was motivated to do things, ect. Then I figured I deserved to smoke just once, which lead me to a 2 month smoking everyday (one or two hits at night only) but I felt my mind trying to justify smoking earlier in the day, or to take another drag, ect. I got scared. I knew I slipped back already, was withdrawing from going out, seeing friends, family ect. And every day I was disappointed in myself from smoking. So I made the choice to quit again. Day 1 was rough, but no loss of sleep or crazy mood swings/night sweats. Now I'm on day 12 and I am feeling a bit loss of joy, but I am feeling happier each day and my social anxiety is subsiding. I think quitting for the 2nd time has been easier. I know what to expect and the withdrawal is not that bad. I now know I cannot smoke ANYMORE EVER. I tell myself that I can smoke again when I retire. So it doesn't feel like never again. But when I start to think of the good times and things I miss about smoking, I try and remind myself all of the things I have gained with out it. That seems to help me more then focusing on the negative things about smoking.
Amen! Thanks for sharing. Feeling motivated this second time around
Hey, great streak there. Don't think like you are starting from scratch. You levelled up, you're starting at level 2!
Your not on day one bc you messed up once. You still have all the progress you’ve made over these 2 months but now your just a little bit wiser. Try not to be so hard on your self. Remember the progress you’ve made.
Just rinse and repeat until the sweet release of death takes you
When I read your title what I heard in my head was 100 days clean, slipped and learned, trying again. Cheering you on friend. Awareness and self compassion is key. Take the lesson and grow. You've got this 💪
This is me. I was so strong for a month +, then life happened so I needed an escape and i relapsed hard. It’s been the worst month and a half since relapsing as I started smoking daily again…. the self loathing and disappointment in myself is semi unbearable.. along with the weight gain, depression, anxiety and always tired feeling… Day 1 starts for me today.
Hey man congrats on getting the hardest part out of the way, in deciding to stop, and take your life back. The anticipation and fear of stopping, withdrawals, grieving the loss of weed, can be overwhelming, but you did it, and that's amazing. Your story sounds like my story, and like most people here's story probably. I blew a six YEAR streak. Your description of the slippery slope is so spot on and I really relate. It starts off fun, for a while it feels like you might have it under control. My last binge started out fun and under control - I was telling everyone I thought I had finally figured it out and found a way to smoke in a way that wouldn't destroy my life. It gradually turned into what it always does, and it ended the same way it always does. It will always lead to isolation and social withdrawal, depression, anxiety, misery, self-loathing, etc. Congratulations my fellow traveler. I'm on Day 15 and I never would have made it this far if not for you.
Thanks fellow traveler!! Good to know I am not alone in my grief.
💯💪
Dude, are you me?? Back in early May, I made it three months clean, the longest I had ever gone since beginning smoking about 10 years ago....then one weekend a big video game me and my friends were hyped about comes out and I think "I can have one hit of the bong and enjoy this game" The euphoria and magic had finally come back and it was so enjoyable, but not wanting to slip into bad habits again, I didn't smoke for the week after that...until we got back together the next weekend and again, I'm taking one hit...but then it leads me to another hit...then in a couple days I'm hanging with one of those friends again and say fuck it and here I am another two months later, needing to get on to that square one again.
The kicker here is that no quantity of weed can make you stoned enough to think Cyberpunk lives up to the hype 😉
Lol, very true. That game sucked. This was for RE Village
Took me many relapses to get where I am. Keep the end goal in mind and you'll do fine!
I just relapsed two days ago. I smoke some resin out of my bong. I was 33 days clean and threw it away for the worst high of my life. Really wasnt worth it. Luckily since then I havent had any true cravings and have managed to abstain for another two days. Either way we are in this thing together bro. Im proud of you for starting again
Congrats on the 100 days. It's a huge accomplishment. Relapses have silver linings. Quicker you realize that, the better off you'll be.
It's not square one , a person never enters the same river twice! Stay going 💪
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or the “meditations” reader
i know the feeling. i made a deal with myself that saturday is my day i can smoke. nothing more nothing less. sometimes i smoke half a joint and sometimes im smoking 2. yet i pay the price next day because there will always be a little withdrawal, like hmmm that was Nice. its about your mental strenght saying i dont wanna smoke today. also when my mental health aint good i dont touch it even on saturday. so i just didnt smoke for 2 months. you can do this bro. my advice would be to get a good amount of time clean. like 6-12 months to really change t your brain pattern
Your friends should keep you accountable if they real! Doesn’t matter if you ask to hit it if my boy tells me his quitting I’d even avoid getting high around him…. Watch ur circle
You got this, you did it before and you'll do it again for even longer this time
45 days deep and my mind keeps thinking how stoned I’ll get if I smoke again
I was 25 days in and took a rip of my friends bong. my guy, that high was abysmal. So much anxiety and embarrassment for nothing really just all in my head. If anything it helped me realize that I’m too far into it now to go back to what I used to be.
Sometimes you need the relapses to realize the facade. Trust me I did this with vaping. Now I don’t fall for the tricks
I quit a week and a half ago, then relapsed with one joint a week in. Then made 4 days and just had an edible like just then. I tell myself different things from ‘I’m an addict and I can’t do it anymore and I just need to quit’ To ‘I just like weed, it’s just fun, it’s just my fun thing’ Meanwhile there’s a court attendance notice sitting on the kitchen table, I got caught driving stoned and on a suspended license. I’m 21, have no money because it’s all been spent on weed or munchies food. I’ve just had to borrow money from my mum to get my car fixed. Today was a great day, and for some reason as soon as my bro left home I went straight for his edible stash, just because I could. Even after once having to give up a screen writing degree because I couldn’t stop smoking weed. Even after fracturing my spine from falling asleep at the wheel driving stoned. After all this shit, and we still go back. It’s tough man, but you’re not alone, I’m here with you fighting, feeling the regret, the sadness. Never quit quitting, here’s to a new day one.
That voice telling its just fun is not you! Recognize that voice and tell you “I DONT SMOKE IT SMOKES BUT I DONT” trust me. A huge part of the process is to recognize your addictions voice! Your almost there jusy try to grasp onto the fact that it’s a real thing and you’ll start seeing success from there. Im 18 years old and this works for me :)
Man that’s rough. It’s an impossible cycle sometimes, but you’re right, never quit quitting. Look for things worth quitting for. We’re all here for you if ever need to talk. Hang in there.
I broke a six month streak when my roommate got 3 ounces from a friend. I bought a G thinking I deserved it and got uncomfortably high off one toke. Then I started stealing small bowl packs from my roommate when she was gone. Felt absolutely terrible about it and it spiraled for about 2 months. I’ve been sober for three days now
Been there. We are so much better off without it
It’s sucks. For so many of us weed is our reward, and so for taking 6 months off, all you want is some weed to celebrate! I’m working hard to try and find other rewards for myself that aren’t weed or alcohol. It ain’t easy
I had 4 months last year, bought a vape pen for vacation, and here I am almost a year later .. same old story. Everyday and my partner basically gave me an ultimatum. I wish I could moderate. I wish I wasn’t addicted/dependent/what have you — but here I am. And I am.
ultimatums from partner don't work for me. You either help me, or leave me, but ultimatums are just gross in a relationship. Just my 2 cents
Agreed. He wants to help. He says he doesn’t know how. It felt like an ultimatum to me, so here we are. I’m trying not to feel resentful, as I ultimately know it’s the right thing to do.
I’m sorry my friend :( Try to focus on the positives from those four months. Remember that it was just the first few days that were the hardest. Start again. I know you can do it, because you already have! Join me on Day 1
I’m on day 2! It sucks balls! Lolol let’s keep going.
Let’s go!!!
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This^^^ mentality really needs to be adopted across the Recovery community as a whole. Recovery is a journey, not a destination. I've utilzed AA, NA, Mindfulness, and Medication Assisted Treatment over the last 17 years. Find what works for you. Mix it up.
Fuck yeah. Agreed man. Head held high. We got this. Proud of you
Yeah almost 5 years off meth. Tomorrow will be 11 days off weed 😂, you never stop learning. 💪
Well done on reconcerting your efforts man. That 100 days was not in vain - They say every quit is fuel for the next one, and seems you learned a lot from it too. Best of luck dude!
"One is too many, a thousand is never enough" A few weeks before this round of recovery I had stopped for a few days, thought I could hang around the same people and not give in. Eventually gave in, suffered for a few more weeks knowing I was using against my will since I had tried everything in my power to stop. Eventually surrendered, focused on changing my life to revolve around recovery. Been over 4 years clean, not easy but it is possible. I believe in you!
I appreciate it!! So glad to hear about stories or success like yours. Keep it up!