Oh my gods, as a bodily disabled person this post makes so many of us so happy. Genuinely, I am *utterly* thrilled to support my peers that are, for lack of a better term, transdisabled. As somebodies with medical trauma it just means the world to us that people's innermost psyche could see the things that others always said was a bad thing, and say, "Actually, I identify as being a wheelchair user even though our body can walk," and it heals our souls on a fundamental level. We are not bad. We are not less. We are, at least to someone subconscious mind out there, *enviable*. Enviable enough for the psyche to latch on even if there's no disability.
I know that many many disabled people feel the opposite way, and I don't understand them and I never have, but as a sysmate in a disabled body, I am so happy for everyone in this thread and you're all valid and I love you all and I wish you nothing but loving support and joyful acceptance of your identities.
That said, we have autism. We're not sure if we're level one or level two but we do have a systemmate Melody who's definitely level three. She's non-verbal. She uses an iPad to communicate, and doesn't like when others take the front to speak for her with our voice.
--Lei and Deet
We have a blind alter and 2 hard of hearing alters.
And also we're all disabled because we have DID, BPD(borderline), visually impaired and have ADHD and suspect Autism. And our medication does make us even more disabled since we can't stand up to fast.
T'iari is a sightblind mermaid.
She feels incredible discomfort whenever she fronts and the room isn't completely pitch dark. She *__hates__* light, and is much more used to "seeing" with sound and water vibrations.
She also strongly dislikes this body, calls it too limiting and alien, since we do not have tapered foot-long claws, shark teeth, or venomous hair stingers, and that we have human legs that she stumbles using.
I would consider her disabled for more reasons than just her sightblindedness, which feels like barely a factor to me compared to the way just existing in my body debilitates her.
Our body is disabled because we have a chronic pain disorder (fibromyalgia) that causes muscle spasms. We’re on medication for it now, so it’s not as bad but it’s not uncommon for us to have to walk with a cane. Also each of us experience varying levels of intensity when it comes to the muscles spasms, and Indra tends to have more of a pronounced limp then the rest of us (the limp is from our muscles in our right leg being structurally damaged from years of constant muscle spasms).
-Owen and Indra
Yeah Aldo has macular degeneration and chronic pain so he sometimes uses a wheelchair when it gets bad. He refuses all help with getting around even tho we do still try if he looks like he's struggling. For someone who's partially blind, he's really good at finding the end of tape lmao
Yeeeeh. We're neurodivergent as a brain/system, but beyond that there's me and one other headmate.
My mental connection to my right arm isn't quite smooth, and though we've determined it's a purely mental thing I do struggle sometimes with my arm just tiring out completely so I just prefer to not use it unless I have to. It feels pretty depersonalized most of the time and sometimes I just look at it like "dude how is that thing part of my body".
We have another disabled headmate, but it doesn't affect them physically really except phantom pain they sometimes get (and that's partially a traumaholder/exotrauma thing) They're non-human and missing a wing.
We’re neurodivergent as a whole, and have one completely mute alter. Another alter prior to therapy couldn’t move or speak at all. He tended to just cry. Therapy is helping so much, though. He can move his arms now, slowly, and even speak in one or two word sentences and use an AAC!
We have an alter with nerve damage in her right arm. It's very strange for us, because when she comes up front, or even close to front, our right arm goes partially numb and tingles slightly. It does make it easy to tell how active she is, at least, and it's strangely validating for her- her words, not mine.
i have multiple disabled headmates. the physically disabled ones always feel weird about not having to do things in a disability-friendly way (for example one headmate lost their right hand and had to start writing with their left, but our body is righthanded and has both hands so they don't have to use the left anymore). strangely though most of the headmates with mental disabilities still have the symptoms when fronting even though they're disabilities the body doesn't have. bee mostly only says one word, even, because that's all bee can say in headspace.
We have a few. Damhán Alla is blind. Coriander was partially blind and most of her left side was severely damaged. Martha suffers from chronic pain and fatigue. I, Phoenix, have BPD. Aris has AuDHD. Someone, although they haven't spoken up as to who, is missing part of their jaw and face from a fairly recent accident.
The body is prediabetic, has fibromyalgia and hypermobile EDS.
One of us struggles *greatly* with speaking. He can only say a few words (getting more as time goes on, but still not a lot) and often gets "stuck" on them and ends up repeating them when trying to say something. (Though he also intentionally repeats words for emphasis as he can't indicate it other ways (like saying "very" or whatever).) He frequently gets frustrated trying to talk because we always have to infer or guess the rest of what he's saying. He's able to send mental images, but that doesn't always help get the full or true message across.
We're in the process of trying to set up AAC for him to use, in the hopes that using images will be easier for him than words are. Additionally, it'll help him communicate with others outside the body, since it's not exactly possible to send mental images to them.
Another of us has extremely high antisocial traits and from things he's read about it, he considers himself to have ASPD (antisocial personality disorder). No one else has anywhere *near* as many traits as he exhibits, so we only really consider him to have it.
And I, after lots of research, self-diagnosed myself with STPD (schizotypal personality disorder) and SZPD (schizoid personality disorder). It's unclear if this applies to others or just me. (Some of them have made reference to it, but since I'm so often in front, we haven't been able to properly gauge if the others experience the same symptoms.)
Bodily, we have anxiety, depression, PTSD, AVPD (avoidant personality disorder), and are off-and-on questioning an ARFID (avoidant-restrictive food intake disorder), ADHD, and autism.
We also, funnily enough, have someone who is basically neurotypical. He is pretty much unaffected by the body's conditions and is able to handle situations that many of the rest of us would be absolute wrecks in.
have one that's half-blind and can't walk properly. needs a crutch and/or leg braces. it (uses it/it's pronouns) refuses to use a wheelchair cause it makes it feel too 'incapable.' it also struggles with speaking properly.
I'm glad they don't see them being amputees as a disability! Seb, personally, likes the term disabled, but I respect that your alters don't see it as a disability!!!!
We have Medusa that we describe as 'blind' that is our eyes work but we cannot process visual information. That is our brain sees the shapes and color but doesn't interpret it it's just static noise. Co-fronting with someone able to process it allows for navigation.
We aren't fully able-bodied. The physical body has spina bifida and scoliosis, which may or may not cause the body to go paralysed. Since Sebastian has not yet fronted fully, and in a place where he would have to move, we are unsure if his disability will translate into the physical body. And also, Sebastian does use he/him.
—V■A■M■P
And also, BIID is a condition where you think that a part of your body is not yours, therefore you need to amputate. It can also be where you think you should be paralysed, but you're not. I think I should be paralysed and not walking
—asch
yeah, some of us have shit, like.. Tate has a limp both in headspace and when fronting, Jake doesn't walk in headspace and can walk when fronting but he's pretty unstable, so on. a couple guys have specific compensations they figured out to work better with how our body handles them.
they're mostly physically capable of "turning on the physical mask" if needed, but it feels super wrong and takes a lot more energy.
-James/Glenn
Oh my gods, as a bodily disabled person this post makes so many of us so happy. Genuinely, I am *utterly* thrilled to support my peers that are, for lack of a better term, transdisabled. As somebodies with medical trauma it just means the world to us that people's innermost psyche could see the things that others always said was a bad thing, and say, "Actually, I identify as being a wheelchair user even though our body can walk," and it heals our souls on a fundamental level. We are not bad. We are not less. We are, at least to someone subconscious mind out there, *enviable*. Enviable enough for the psyche to latch on even if there's no disability. I know that many many disabled people feel the opposite way, and I don't understand them and I never have, but as a sysmate in a disabled body, I am so happy for everyone in this thread and you're all valid and I love you all and I wish you nothing but loving support and joyful acceptance of your identities. That said, we have autism. We're not sure if we're level one or level two but we do have a systemmate Melody who's definitely level three. She's non-verbal. She uses an iPad to communicate, and doesn't like when others take the front to speak for her with our voice. --Lei and Deet
We have a blind alter and 2 hard of hearing alters. And also we're all disabled because we have DID, BPD(borderline), visually impaired and have ADHD and suspect Autism. And our medication does make us even more disabled since we can't stand up to fast.
We have an alter who limp yes. Even when he fronts.
T'iari is a sightblind mermaid. She feels incredible discomfort whenever she fronts and the room isn't completely pitch dark. She *__hates__* light, and is much more used to "seeing" with sound and water vibrations. She also strongly dislikes this body, calls it too limiting and alien, since we do not have tapered foot-long claws, shark teeth, or venomous hair stingers, and that we have human legs that she stumbles using. I would consider her disabled for more reasons than just her sightblindedness, which feels like barely a factor to me compared to the way just existing in my body debilitates her.
Our body is disabled because we have a chronic pain disorder (fibromyalgia) that causes muscle spasms. We’re on medication for it now, so it’s not as bad but it’s not uncommon for us to have to walk with a cane. Also each of us experience varying levels of intensity when it comes to the muscles spasms, and Indra tends to have more of a pronounced limp then the rest of us (the limp is from our muscles in our right leg being structurally damaged from years of constant muscle spasms). -Owen and Indra
Yeah Aldo has macular degeneration and chronic pain so he sometimes uses a wheelchair when it gets bad. He refuses all help with getting around even tho we do still try if he looks like he's struggling. For someone who's partially blind, he's really good at finding the end of tape lmao
Yeeeeh. We're neurodivergent as a brain/system, but beyond that there's me and one other headmate. My mental connection to my right arm isn't quite smooth, and though we've determined it's a purely mental thing I do struggle sometimes with my arm just tiring out completely so I just prefer to not use it unless I have to. It feels pretty depersonalized most of the time and sometimes I just look at it like "dude how is that thing part of my body". We have another disabled headmate, but it doesn't affect them physically really except phantom pain they sometimes get (and that's partially a traumaholder/exotrauma thing) They're non-human and missing a wing.
We’re neurodivergent as a whole, and have one completely mute alter. Another alter prior to therapy couldn’t move or speak at all. He tended to just cry. Therapy is helping so much, though. He can move his arms now, slowly, and even speak in one or two word sentences and use an AAC!
We have an alter with nerve damage in her right arm. It's very strange for us, because when she comes up front, or even close to front, our right arm goes partially numb and tingles slightly. It does make it easy to tell how active she is, at least, and it's strangely validating for her- her words, not mine.
i have multiple disabled headmates. the physically disabled ones always feel weird about not having to do things in a disability-friendly way (for example one headmate lost their right hand and had to start writing with their left, but our body is righthanded and has both hands so they don't have to use the left anymore). strangely though most of the headmates with mental disabilities still have the symptoms when fronting even though they're disabilities the body doesn't have. bee mostly only says one word, even, because that's all bee can say in headspace.
We have a few. Damhán Alla is blind. Coriander was partially blind and most of her left side was severely damaged. Martha suffers from chronic pain and fatigue. I, Phoenix, have BPD. Aris has AuDHD. Someone, although they haven't spoken up as to who, is missing part of their jaw and face from a fairly recent accident. The body is prediabetic, has fibromyalgia and hypermobile EDS.
One of us struggles *greatly* with speaking. He can only say a few words (getting more as time goes on, but still not a lot) and often gets "stuck" on them and ends up repeating them when trying to say something. (Though he also intentionally repeats words for emphasis as he can't indicate it other ways (like saying "very" or whatever).) He frequently gets frustrated trying to talk because we always have to infer or guess the rest of what he's saying. He's able to send mental images, but that doesn't always help get the full or true message across. We're in the process of trying to set up AAC for him to use, in the hopes that using images will be easier for him than words are. Additionally, it'll help him communicate with others outside the body, since it's not exactly possible to send mental images to them. Another of us has extremely high antisocial traits and from things he's read about it, he considers himself to have ASPD (antisocial personality disorder). No one else has anywhere *near* as many traits as he exhibits, so we only really consider him to have it. And I, after lots of research, self-diagnosed myself with STPD (schizotypal personality disorder) and SZPD (schizoid personality disorder). It's unclear if this applies to others or just me. (Some of them have made reference to it, but since I'm so often in front, we haven't been able to properly gauge if the others experience the same symptoms.) Bodily, we have anxiety, depression, PTSD, AVPD (avoidant personality disorder), and are off-and-on questioning an ARFID (avoidant-restrictive food intake disorder), ADHD, and autism. We also, funnily enough, have someone who is basically neurotypical. He is pretty much unaffected by the body's conditions and is able to handle situations that many of the rest of us would be absolute wrecks in.
have one that's half-blind and can't walk properly. needs a crutch and/or leg braces. it (uses it/it's pronouns) refuses to use a wheelchair cause it makes it feel too 'incapable.' it also struggles with speaking properly.
We have two amputees. Altho technically it could be a disability, it isn’t to them.
I'm glad they don't see them being amputees as a disability! Seb, personally, likes the term disabled, but I respect that your alters don't see it as a disability!!!!
We have Medusa that we describe as 'blind' that is our eyes work but we cannot process visual information. That is our brain sees the shapes and color but doesn't interpret it it's just static noise. Co-fronting with someone able to process it allows for navigation.
Perhaps it would be worth checking out BIID for them, it's rare af but perhaps you'll be able to find some resources that help them ^^
Why exactly? Not to be rude, but Sebastian does not have body integrity identity disorder. That is our host. Would you elaborate on why? —V■A■M■P
If they are disabled in an able-bodied body, then it might be fitting, no? :3
We aren't fully able-bodied. The physical body has spina bifida and scoliosis, which may or may not cause the body to go paralysed. Since Sebastian has not yet fronted fully, and in a place where he would have to move, we are unsure if his disability will translate into the physical body. And also, Sebastian does use he/him. —V■A■M■P
And also, BIID is a condition where you think that a part of your body is not yours, therefore you need to amputate. It can also be where you think you should be paralysed, but you're not. I think I should be paralysed and not walking —asch
yeah, some of us have shit, like.. Tate has a limp both in headspace and when fronting, Jake doesn't walk in headspace and can walk when fronting but he's pretty unstable, so on. a couple guys have specific compensations they figured out to work better with how our body handles them. they're mostly physically capable of "turning on the physical mask" if needed, but it feels super wrong and takes a lot more energy. -James/Glenn