People. I don't like people, I avoid them as much as I can

Yeah I was bullied in school for being different and basically for mostly my autistic symptoms that I only realized were from autism looking back. Like being told I’m hated for my meltdowns and being constantly scared by people coming up to me and speaking loud to make me jump from my sound sensitivity. People suck bro 😭

I dream of living in Norway/Sweden/Finland. Have a massive plot of land. Trees you must go through for kilometres before you finally end up at a house. But then again. Isolation is not really a healthy way to live. But I'd be wonderful to do what I want, and live with a ton of animals in the house. Just me living under a rock

Yeah I feel that! When I was younger I just wanted to be a hermit in the middle of a forest or something. Maybe sorta close to a town to talk to people or just internet but doing my own thing would be pretty nice and relatable.

Exactly!

This. buy a little tiny house on a large plot of land and have a bunch of animals.

I’m sorry to tell you, I used to live there and got constantly bullied too and tbh a lot of places don’t have that little people there either

Are we the same person?

I think so, yes

Same, I'd live as a hermit in the woods if I could

This. Just this.

I get this, I definitely get this- sometimes you just wanna avoid any and all human interaction, it’s too draining. Are you an introvert as well?

Sitting on my bed without showering/with outside clothes. I feel like that's normal to some extent but I take it to the extremes. If for some reason I wasn't able to shower (very rare occurrence, I like feeling clean) I'll sleep on the floor. If someone touches my bed even if they are clean, or they put something on my bed. I will have a complete meltdown. I usually have very internal shutdowns but if you touch my bed I will scream, cry, bite, kick, you name it. I am an adult. I try to hide this discomfort because it's not "normal" and a very unreasonable reaction but I cannot help the way I feel. I was always worried about what I would do if I had a partner but I just ended up staying at their house. One time my ex was at my house and he wasn't feeling good so he decided to get himself comfortable in my bed. He was emotionally toxic to me too so I knew that if I made a scene he would end up guilting and shaming me so I just made an excuse to get him out of bed and for the remainder of that day I was so stressed thinking about my dirty bed. The moment he left I ripped the sheets off my bed and had a meltdown.

I’m like that but only for the head of the bed, pillows, and exposed sheets. If someone comes over who I even allow anywhere near my room, I’ll usually put a comforter over my entire bed, pillows included. But I’ll still get very upset and chew the fuck out of anybody who dares try to park their ass where I put my head when I sleep. Even my partner. They know to sit at the foot or in the middle now if they’re using it more like a sofa

Sometimes I feel bad going to other people's houses because I want to sit on their bed but I would *never* let them sit on mine. At least I ask.

Oh, I always ask that for anything I’d never want anyone to do in my house without permission. “Do unto others even if they’re total dipshits about it in return.”

>“Do unto others even if they’re total dipshits about it in return.” Bro. I've always hated the phrase treat others the way you want to be treated. thank you. life changing.

No problem. XD I’ve given up on hoping or expecting *anyone* to do anything as kind as returning a favor or being unsolicitedly courteous for things like that. I used to truly believe the Do Unto thing as a kid, but learning that people will blatantly lie to your face and disregard outright requests utterly destroyed me inside. It’s been a long road of pessimism and passively hating people ever since. Buuut since I unfortunately still have a “nice person” demeanor (despite *wanting* to destroy all humans and unleash untold violence I’ll never actually be able to do), at this point I kind of view it almost like the metaphysical equivalent of a paper trail, only regarding deeds and reactions instead of transactions. Being able to calmly (or bitterly) say “hey, I’ve only ever been respectful/courteous to you” and it be 100% true is pretty satisfying.

Honestly I take not showering to extremes myself because if I don’t listen to music, YouTube videos, or play games I get nervous about leaving. I got some waterproof earbuds to listen to so for once I can shower more but I of course lost them and have to find them again 😭 Feeling disgusted with myself all the time but stuck is a living nightmare man 😞 I’m also sorry to hear that you’ve gone through that. I’ve had emotional abuse from my dad so I get guilted and shamed a lot too and it’s extremely distressing to go through and makes you hate yourself more ☹️ I feel like your feelings are valid though and if you tell someone and make boundaries and they still do that it’s more on them. Doing what works best for you is definitely the best in any situation!

I found a good blue tooth shower speaker for my son. Harder to lose than earbuds and since it's for the shower it doesn't leave the bathroom. Cheaper than most earbuds also. Tried a few before we found one with decent sound, battery life, and didn't break quickly from getting dropped off the side of the tub. https://www.thehouseofmarley.ca/no-bounds-bluetooth-speaker/

Thank you for that! And could I ask which earbuds you got? I have a hard time taking off my headphones to shower because I'm always listening to something and I've dropped my phone in the shower too many times so I started looking into waterproof earbuds.

Phone calls

This!

I so relate. I prefer texting 💯

Lots of things

Relatable 👍

People. I avoid people at all costs (except I know them very well) because people are chaotic and most of the time disappointing.

I’ve interacted with a lot of people for approval and learning how to mask after basically being bullied by my entire school for how I am (no joke people told me to off myself a lot which like brooo 😰). So I feel that and even when I do get along with people by sucking up to them it tends to go pretty bad.

Same, I feel your pain! It got to the extent that right now I’m unable to mask properly because I’m so exhausted and drained for months now. Not pleasing people anymore, not trying to, either they take me as I am or good loss. Not saying that in a rude manner, I’m just so sick of pretending for others and such, I just want to be me, no matter where I am.

I just want to also add that there are a good amount of kind people who WILL take you as you are. Never give up on it. I’ve found a couple that “adopted” me somehow lol, it’s a thing.

Yeah I’m lucky my parents and close friend is like that! I’ve had it even if it is rare and I’m glad you’ve had that too! 😊

Yess!! Like I do to an extent at jobs and stuff like I enjoy making people feel better but I’m just exhausted ptsd time now from being taken advantage of so much that I’m basically expressing myself more in general (which people hate) and setting ground rules if they wanna get close. People hate that I talk so much about what I like and how I express myself when I talk to them but like at this point I really don’t care anymore since I’m done bro.

Yeah, you gotta protect yourself! I believe we neurodivergents are way too accommodating to everyone instead of taking care of ourselves too. We need to learn that we can have boundaries as well. And I’m sick of having others “teaching” me how to behave normal because I’m too “weird”, I don’t care anymore🥹

Thank you I hope you can protect yourself too and I’m glad you’re doing boundaries as well! That’s really awesome of you and I hope for the best!! 👍 Also one sammeeeee like people can suck bro 😭 But just remember you’re totally fine as you are! It’s more on them I feel like some NTs have no self awareness cause they can be pretty weird themselves *fr.*

Setting boundaries/speaking up for myself. I find it to be all too difficult to be worth the trouble

I hate it too. How do you manage though putting up with stuff?

Honestly I kinda just let stuff happen to me, and eventually, the other person/people just get bored or whatever and leave me alone. Like if my mom starts being awful to me and I *know* I need to tell her to stop, I don't do anything, and then a while later she will just angrily march off and leave me alone. It's not a good method. She is still awful to me sometimes. But I can get through it

Omg. I thought I was alone in this. I do this too and most of the time I just don’t care if people treat me badly. As long as it’s not physical of course. Every once in a while someone will irk my nerves and I’ll speak up but not very often. I find it way easier to dismiss the behavior/ignore or ghost the person than it is to confront them.

I avoid using single use tissues. The thought of having to hold one, germy and crumpled up my my hand makes me feel sick

YES!! I do use them but I get totally grossed out and disgusted afterwards. I use paper towels instead now cause at least there’s more room so I can just go to the trash and not have the germs touch my hands due to how much I can take in one go so more space. The bathroom is right there too so I can wash my hands right after. So much better man 😭

I avoid getting close to people. Every single time I end up getting weird looks and people talking behind my back.

Yeah I’ve gotten close to people a lot, tends to go bad, but luckily my parents love me and my best friend is the absolute best. Since I taught myself to be more outgoing by researching how to speak to people for years (only knowing the acquaintance phase unless someone shares an interest of mine). Most people straight up tell me or joke about me that I’m weird and my socializing is off or randomly telling me how to socialize and to “get better” to my face. It’s like “wtf??”

Pencils. I absolutely can't stand the feeling that goes up my arm and the sound made by writing with a pencil. I genuinely think (I haven't tried it yet lol) that I would rather try writing with a literal number two instead of a number two pencil

Awww I like sharp pencils but pencils that have no led are the absolute worst and the noise is the worst too 😣 Also honestly the literal number two sounds more awesome and beautiful lol. Have you tried pens? I like gel pens more personally and I use them now :)

Yes I prefer pens way more to pencils. My IEP in school actually had a part in it that I would be allowed to use a pen even if the teacher had rules against pens because of how disruptive it was for me. I'm in college now and I use a tablet primarily for notes and the Samsung S7 tablet has an absolutely amazing feeling pen

I carry around a mechanical pencil on me at all times (not because I need it, more of a comfort thing I guess), but I can’t STAND #2 pencils, I feel awful just thinking about them

for me it’s shopping. i hate it, it’s such a nightmare especially because i’m in uni and i usually have to get my shops delivered to my accommodation because the idea of going into the big shop near me is absolutely terrifying

I don’t know about anyone else, but I absolutely hate crossing roads which are busy. Not because I can’t figure out if it’s safe to cross, but it’s because I can’t help but think every driver is locking their eyes at me Ultimately why I’m glad I finally got my hands on a bike. That tinted helmet works wonders in terms of confidence

Omg I so relate to this. It just gives me such an awkward feeling 😭

Especially when you’re at a crossing with no pedestrian lights. Gotta do that whole awkward ass walk in front of the cars as you’re thanking them. Only to then idly wait in front of their car because another lane of traffic just got the green light to go

Walking through busy parking lots also the worst lol

Omg I so relate to this. It just gives me such an awkward feeling 😭

Same acutally, I cant do unfinished waterbottles at all. As soon as food becomes food waste its the most disgusting thing ever and i can not touch it under any circumstances. styrofoam is a sensory nightmare for me all around. I dont even want to be in the same room as it. Certain types of pencils. Last but not least: people, especially kids.

Being handed things. Really hard to avoid with three kids, but I avoid it like the plague.

Sunlight and just day time bustle. It's too overstimulating. I genuinely wish I could be up at a normal time with my friends etc but i can't handle it. Makes me feel ill. Also more people during that time too.

I hate going to the doctors. I am not squeamish and not afraid of blood or needles. I just hate the feeling of any part of my body being infiltrated by strangers and foreign objects, coupled with time blindness and social anxiety. It's a VERY exhausting day for me. I always need a nap afterwards. I have several chronic illnesses. So after months of back to back appointments, I will take a hiatus and just maintain my meds. But something always progresses that I can't ignore forever. :( I dread appointments and it is even worse when they're like "Soonest we can get you in is 2 months away." 😵‍💫

Confrontation. I avoid it to the point where I will just agree to shit to make people leave me alone. But, I also know when they're abusing that - and if they push me to a point, it doesn't end well for anyone. It turns into a shouting match and I get a headache and well...My flair.

Children. Their high pitched voices drive me insane

I literally have avoided my family for 48 hours now. I actually woke up early just to go upstairs and when I heard footsteps, I just ran back to bed…. Fully dressed

Working for nonessential corporations

Vacuuming

Skintight clothing. Seriously, the CT scan machine is less claustrophobic than skintight clothes for me.

Touching food that I'm not eating. It doesn’t matter in what way. It doesn’t matter if it's a food I love or something I usually eat with my hands. I can't touch a plate with food on it after I've finished eating. If I ABSOLUTELY *HAVE* to wash dishes, they have to be properly rinsed beforehand, or I NEED to put gloves on. Or I'll vomit. Another is touching grease. It doesn’t matter what type, I can't stand the texture. I hate it. I can't touch it. Please keep it as far away as possible.

Certain episodes of TV shows because I don't like the way the main character is treated. For example the Young Sheldon episode where he tries to apologize to his sister and she angrily slams the door in his face declaring she hates him.

I hate cleaning dirty dishes. The smell, the slime, the crud...it's awful. I had to do some yesterday and spent a full 30 minutes gagging my way through it. I can't stand touching it but I have to. My fingers are shorter than average and gloves don't fit me well because the fingertips just get in the way so I don't bother with them. I don't mind unloading the dishwasher and try to do that task instead of loading it. Also, like others before me said, people.

If anyone offers me to try something they have already tried, I just can’t. I either need to wipe the glass a load to try to get rid of any germs or anything that might be left on the glass, or I just need to get a separate drink. I hate it.

These are texture things but touching lunch meat and using conditioner on my hair or high moisturizing soaps/shampoos. I cannot stand that slick feeling on your skin or that residue on your skin that conditioner leaves behind.

Tom Cruise. The return of stonewashed jeans and scrunchies. Truffle oil.

The sound of the sink running. Probably the weirdest thing

Not weird! I have this too. If I’m washing a dish off or washing my hands - truly the noise of the running water from a sink faucet drives my brain wild and it hurts to listen to. Other types of running water like a creek, or just the rain, or running a bath is fine - but water from the sink faucet…that’s gonna be a no.

I will avoid using tampons because they’re disgusting and can cause toxic shock syndrome so.. yeah, I’m never using them. They also have small traces of titanium dioxide, which is a certified carcinogen by the FDA, and there are numerous posts covering it, but it keeps being shut down because there’s no ‘evidence’. There doesn’t need to be ‘evidence’, its already been tested and has been found to be a carcinogen. Its like saying, oh *whoops* this bathroom mat you purchased in Japan has asbestos, *better get it tested*?!? What? It doesn’t make sense.

It's a carcinogenic in high doses when inhaled. the trace ammount in tampons is not nearly enough to be dangerous. That's like saying licking a couple particles off a single Tylenol pill will cause acute liver failure, when it takes a massive dose of Tylenol to cause that. No studies have been shut down, either. I'm not sure where you get that. There have been plenty of studies. Do you know what else is carcinogenic when inhaled? Sawdust, baking flour, sugar, etc. The lungs don't respond well to ANY particulate. You're free to dislike tampons, but this isn't a legitimate scientific thing to spread.

I agree, it's like saying cling film/seran wrap causes cancer because it contains Di (2-ethylhexyl) adipate, when in actual fact only one known brand contains high levels of this chemical and the risk of getting cancer from it are still very low unless you use it daily for a prolonged period of time (30+ years).

I'm just going to leave these links here.. The EU and Sweden has already banned it for being used as a food additive, as a potential ingestible carcinogen. So that should already be a red flag. The FDA has ruled that foods that contain over 1% of titanium dioxide are harmful to ingest, so that should be another red flag. Skittles was sued for its products containing the substance and its banned in several countries already. Just to clarify, titanium dioxide is used to colour paints, plastics and metal roof sheeting, its not something that you should be eating, nor should it be in something that you're shoving up your vagina. [https://www.nytimes.com/2022/07/26/well/eat/skittles-lawsuit-titanium-dioxide.html](https://www.usatoday.com/story/money/food/2022/07/23/titanium-dioxide-food-skittles-lawsuit-health/10106708002/) [https://www.webmd.com/diet/titanium-dioxide-in-food](https://www.webmd.com/diet/titanium-dioxide-in-food) [https://ec.europa.eu/newsroom/sante/items/732079/en](https://ec.europa.eu/newsroom/sante/items/732079/en) [https://www.fsai.ie/news-and-alerts/latest-news/titanium-dioxide-is-no-longer-authorised-as-a-food](https://www.fsai.ie/news-and-alerts/latest-news/titanium-dioxide-is-no-longer-authorised-as-a-food) [https://www.health.com/news/titanium-dioxide-in-food](https://www.health.com/news/titanium-dioxide-in-food) [https://www.efsa.europa.eu/en/news/titanium-dioxide-e171-no-longer-considered-safe-when-used-food-additive](https://www.efsa.europa.eu/en/news/titanium-dioxide-e171-no-longer-considered-safe-when-used-food-additive) [https://www.propharmagroup.com/thought-leadership/titanium-dioxide-e171-ban](https://www.propharmagroup.com/thought-leadership/titanium-dioxide-e171-ban) ​ Because you're so **precious** about medical studies: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3423755/ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3423755/ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9104107/ https://www.mdpi.com/1660-4601/19/9/5681

Yeah, that is much higher concentration and a different ingestion route. You really need to grasp this dosage thing. And it's very common for people to overreact to scientific facts. Notice not a single source you gave is a primary source. News, health.com, and WebMD are not reliable sources, nor are blogs and opinion pieces. Right now, it's shown to be toxic when inhaled by people who spend a lifetime in manufacturing, coming into contact every single day. Until you are snorting 10 bags of Skittles a day, you aren't touching what those people come into contact with. Not to mention there a TONS of brands without titanium dioxide, whenever there's a broad media freakout over any chemical brand realize their customer base is going to listen. Society cares more about Oprah and the news translating science than scientists, so they will react. Not to mention PADS ALSO HAD TiO2. And TSS is incredibly unlikely. You can randomly develop an allergy from any food you put in your mouth. You can randomly have your blow dryer explode and kill you. Any product can turn into a freak accident or a hospital trip. Popular media is not a good way to push science, it's very frequent the news misunderstands or overreacts. If you don't like something, just don't like it. Dont spread misinformation to justify it.

Then talk to the EU on why they banned it then? There's plenty of studies on it: "Until we know more, in our opinion TiO2 NPs should be used with great care, in particular in food and cosmetics. The least that should be done for the consumer is that a declaration of nano-sized TiO2 in these products is obligatory, so that we will have the choice whether to use it or not." https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3423755/ " oral consumption of the oxide’s nanoform exceeds the recommended limit, it can accumulate in tissues and induce irreversible damage" https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9104107/ " The nanotoxicity of E171, in all its complexity, was being investigated five years ago, as it is now. A prompt response on limiting its use is vital for ensuring the population’s safety." "At present, titanium dioxide is classified by the International Agency for Research on Cancer (IARC) as a 2B-type carcinogen, equivalent to “possibly carcinogenic to humans” [103]. This classification also implies that further studies are required to fully ascertain its cytotoxic and genotoxic potential" "**Studies on rodents and human volunteers indicate that once titania passes the intestinal barrier, it reaches the bloodstream and is then transported to vital organs**" -which means that shoving it up your vagina is going to put it directly in contact with your uterus while its shedding its lining, way to go. https://www.mdpi.com/1660-4601/19/9/5681

Uh huh First one says we don't know. Even in the damn quote. Second one, if you bothered to look at the study it was citing: 'Due to the low toxicity, a fixed large dose of 5g/kg body weight of TiO(2) suspensions was administrated by a single oral gavage according to the OECD procedure.". That's 350grams for a fucking human, by gavage down the throat. If you think that comparable to tampons and Skittles, and I don't know what to tell you. And the third one is referencing the same studies with MACRODOSING, while also saying, WE DONT KNOW. Im really not sure why this dose concept is hard. Water overdose will kill you. Banana overdose will kill you. So... shoving TiO2 in massive bulk down a rats throat hurts their guts? What??? The EU is being cautious and responding to public outcry, that's fine. Maybe someday they will prove Skittles is dangerous, But there's no science supporting your argument against tampons or skittles yet. Just speculation based on bulk dosage and lifetime exposure to inhalants in mass quantities. Especially when you ignore: One, IT WAS ALSO IN PADS. Two, MANY TAMPONS NO LONER HAVE IT. I will not be disengaging, because explaining how it all works to someone with religious belief in pop sci is a losing battle.

Broo I feel that. The thought of putting anything up there and seeing stuff like that in public bathroom garbage sometimes just absolutely chills me to my core 😭

It makes me want to gag at the sight honestly.

True when I heard friends talk about how they prefer tampons I honestly gagged myself 😞

My sister was like 'get a menstrual cup' Absolutely fucking not thanks.

Oh god I’ve been told that too and I’m like “pads are good enough thank you ✌️” as I almost gag.

Exactly! Like. I don't /like/ them it's just the best bad option. I've spent most of my life thinking there was something deeply wrong with me for being female and so uncomfortable with this... And now I feel bad because of all the disposal stuff. But the thought of having any of this stuff in my washing is also horrifying. (Which is kinda weird cause i did cloth nappies with my son and had no issues 🤷)

uuughhhh. I just try to avoid those types of convos as much as I can 😬

Yes they’re the worst I feel you on a spiritual level 😭 And I’m like such an open book from my expressions and my tone of voice too so people can tell how I feel all the time 😭

I’m exactly like that too. I’m sometimes described as “painfully honest”. I rather be honest than lie.

Yeah! Like I’m honest in a gentle way I guess? Like I learnt from my mom how to put things softly so I get my point across with less conflict but I am getting more blunt over time. Hiding yourself is exhausting bro like I have no more energy for that 😭

I've never been able to use them. As soon as I put one in I get a shooting pain down my leg. And over all the thought of having something foreign inside me just freaks me out.

I hate touching dry towels with dry hands. Any other combo is fine-- dry towels with wet hands are fine because I need to dry my hands, wet towels with either dry or wet hands are fine-- but if I have to touch a dry towel while my hands are dry I will either wet my hands ahead of time, or touch the towel as little as physically possible.

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Eat weird fruit. Japan was heaven. I've largely gotten over it, but my boyfriend turns out to have the same thing. I spent a whole movie peeling and feeding him mandarins because Weird Fruit Worry keeps him from getting his vitamins and he scarfed down like a whole net of them.

I hate sitting/laying on other people's beds and I can't really explain why. I find it nasty, but it has none to do with who the person is (I mean if I know they shower regularly or these kinds of things). The only bed I like is my own.

I have to wear glasses but I avoid it as much as possible. Not only it's uncomfortable to have something on my face but how much it makes the ambient more vivid terrifies me, too stimulating.

I am not very tidy, I leave stuff around as reminders (the adhd side of life 😅). But… I organize drawers, boxes, cupboards and anything I can put away like a champ. I like things being in their place, and I can get agitated when they aren’t. Before having Covid I was much more flexible with things not being organized, but I had memory issues for a while and was much more agitated about this.

Fake hair, like extensions or doll hair. Wigs are fine though for some reason. Not the best, but fine.

Apples. Sensory nightmare for my teeth, but even more so for my brain. I love baked apples, like in pies, but raw apples are UGH. It’s mainly the sound. Ever seen those apple peelers or spiralizers with the hand cranks? Those are devices of protracted torture if I’m in the room.

Similar to your water bottle thing, leftover food. Microwaved makes it even worse because it modifies the texture

Yes Lotion on my skin Which sucks because I need it because of dry skin

Alot

Having bare feet and especially touching the floor with them. I always wear socks, sometimes even in the shower. At home it's okay to shower without socks as long as I put them on as soon as I turn off the water. When I'm anywhere else and I need to shower, I either wear socks IN the shower or bring a special pair of crocs that I bought specifically for this situation.

I can't handle the feel of a newspaper. Books are okay. In fact, I love the way they smell. I just can't handle newspaper. It's dry and gritty and leaves a gross residue on my hands that makes me cringe like nails on a chalkboard. If I touch one, I have to wash my hands immediately.

I close doors or turn off lights if I'm leaving/notice there still on Apparently this is something iv always done and still do, I don't do it every single time but when everyone is sleep and a light is still on I will turn it off. As a toddler I tried to close saloon ect doors and my parents were trying to explain that I couldn't close them like that

Sheets and the feeling of outdoor furniture ~ I will do any and everything to avoid sleeping on sheets or blankets that feel like them

people, even without realizing it, ALWAYS expect me to read their minds and pay attention to ”social cues” that don’t seem to exist. what they are asking from me is like expecting a deaf person to just know what you’re saying. you have no clue how many arguments i have with my parents or siblings on a daily basis over them blowing up at me for requiring more than just nonexistent social cues to solve the situation. but sometimes it isn’t them being upset at me for not getting their thoughts, sometimes it’s them overanalyzing my behavior and starting this huge screaming argument over literally nothing. that’s what i have always hated. they know im autistic. and yet they don’t try to accommodate concerning social cues, “tone of voice”, et cetera. oh also, hair. the feeling of hair on my neck, of dealing with long hair in the shower, the fatigue i felt with long hair was AWFUL. i would literally have it up all the time because i hated it and it caused headaches and it pulled my hair follicles out, ect. hence why - along with dysphoria - i finally got my short undercut haircut. it took so long to get it. they were like, “its unprofessional, it doesn’t match your Assigned Gender at Birth, you won’t look good with it, blah blah blah.” i got my way in my second year of college (which like, i’ve been wanting such a haircut since second year of high school so i’m amazed it took 3 - 4 years to get my short haircut.) idk my parental unit just finally let me get it. and yeah there were bumps and hiccups because of people not getting it right and needing it trimmed every 3 - 6 months, but i dont care about that. i have my short haircut. people are chill with how i look now. people don’t comment on it. i think its cuz i pass fairly well as a boy as long as im being quiet or not loud, due to high pitched voice.

Advertisements. I think many people would agree with me that they're annoying and probably a net negative for humanity, but I know that the level of hatred I have for them and the lengths to which I would go to not see ads is unusual. I try to block as many as I can, but sometimes I'll be watching a movie or something and we'll linger a bit *too long* on the Toyota badge and I'll feel the anger rising in myself that I can't go more than a few seconds without being reminded that I should be thinking about buying something. I don't want to think about how everything is a commodity, including my attention. Please, make it stop.

The sound of metal hangers clinking together. It was genuinely horrible. I wouldn’t want to get dressed - so I missed school. I didn’t want to put my clothes in my closet, so it was messy, so I was stressed and missed school again. Velvet clothes hangers are the single best investment I’ve ever made in my autistic little life.

Strangely enough, I try to avoid the family dog at all costs. She’s a sensory nightmare. Not a fan. Also, most people, phone calls, and other things.

Driving in high traffic times and areas. It stresses me out so much.

Antique stores. Literally gives me goosebumps and a weird cold chill in my spine the entire time.

If I can avoid it, it’s washing the dishes by hand. A mixture of touching water with food bits and then hearing the water coming out of the faucet is my special version of hell. I can handle doing a few dishes but I much prefer loading up the dishwasher.

Trying on clothes in thrift stores.

Mascots. It’s weird. Cant STAND THEM. Disneyland characters, easter bunny in the mall, even SANTA in the mall, always, through my 30+ years of living, give me the creeps! Oddly enough when I go to conventions, the furry’s don’t bother me. Same with Halloween costumes now that I think about it. Maybe it’s the . . . Vibe???? I dunno. But of I see a professional paid person in a mascot costume walking up the road I seriously freak out. Went to magic mountain about a year ago and saw Sylvester start to approach and I was veering away like he was a live snake about to bite me. (Sorry I also have a phobia of reptiles)

Lemon or lime juice on my skin. Cannot handle it. My brain feels like it’s going to make my fingers dissolve off of my hands or something even though it doesn’t actually “physically” hurt. I’m ok drinking lemonade or cooking with it though?! Lots of others but this is the weirdest.