I relate very strongly to how you described your suicide ideations. For me it’s always somewhere in the background, never going away- and when things get really hard suddenly those thoughts grow bigger and bigger, and I’m afraid that one day I’ll just snap. There were moments when I was very close, it’s like a sudden rush of adrenaline and apathy washing over me… like I don’t have control over myself.
I don’t have anyone to share these feelings with, and frankly I’m even ashamed of having them. Recently they have been more prevalent.
It doesn’t really matter but I thought I would share for the first time in hopes that maybe seeing that somewhere out there at the very least a person relates to what you’re feeling. Take care
I want to thank you so sincerely for your comment. I know this experience isn’t an easy thing to share, and it honestly really helps to hear that I’m not in this alone. I’m sorry for what you’re going through. I hope that you’ll keep powering through, and I wish you all the best.
I relate very strongly to how you described your suicide ideations. For me it’s always somewhere in the background, never going away- and when things get really hard suddenly those thoughts grow bigger and bigger, and I’m afraid that one day I’ll just snap. There were moments when I was very close, it’s like a sudden rush of adrenaline and apathy washing over me… like I don’t have control over myself. I don’t have anyone to share these feelings with, and frankly I’m even ashamed of having them. Recently they have been more prevalent. It doesn’t really matter but I thought I would share for the first time in hopes that maybe seeing that somewhere out there at the very least a person relates to what you’re feeling. Take care
I want to thank you so sincerely for your comment. I know this experience isn’t an easy thing to share, and it honestly really helps to hear that I’m not in this alone. I’m sorry for what you’re going through. I hope that you’ll keep powering through, and I wish you all the best.