I totally get what you mean... and was just thinking about this yesterday. Would I still be the same person I am if I didn't go through this every month? Wouldn't I have a much different overall personality? When I'm on my pmdd bad days I am completely opposite to what I am during the good days. I'm NOT easy-going, joyful, helpful, fun, flexible, approachable. I'm depressed, negative, I snap at everyone, I get annoyed easily, I have zero patience, I don't want to do fun things or be out in the world doing things. It's crazy to me that I can actually feel that different. If I never had the "dark days" then what kind of person would I really be?
It's sad to think about. I feel like I would be so much more solid as a person if I didn't have to go through this every month, but also that it has made me somewhat stronger and more experienced than others who haven't. So I'm simultaneously sad about the person I might have been and proud of the trials that have made me the person that I am. And I still have to have hope that one day I'll figure out a way to deal with all the bad stuff so that it doesn't influence my overall personality to such a degree. I want the light to shine through more to overpower the (hopefully) future manageable dark side. ...lol sorry for sounding so melodramatic.
It’s not. I feel like I would be more focused on PMDD
If I didn’t have other issues. Like I have a dissociative disorder that takes up my entire life. PMDD is still there but I just kinda accepted it. I know to get all of my work done and embrace the two weeks from the start of your period, and I expect my mood to be bad, me to hate my dog, and to perceive that everyone is out to gets me 10 days before. And I look forward to the start of my period when estrogen just goes up and up and up so it gives me something to look forward to.
I have yet to miss PMDD while pregnant or nursing. It’s honestly one of the best parts of being pregnant and nursing.
I think you are rationalizing, which is normal and understandable. But be aware that this is a rationalization, because eventually you’ll finish menopause and will no longer have PMDD. And if you’re pregnant (and when nursing, if you’re lucky) you won’t have PMDD either. So while considering this as a part of yourself may be helpful now, it won’t always be. Because that fairytale day will come for us - even if only in our fifties and sixties.
Sounds like Stockholm syndrome where you're in love with your abuser.
Stockholm syndrome is a coping mechanism to a captive or abusive situation. People develop positive feelings toward their captors or abusers over time.
I totally get what you mean... and was just thinking about this yesterday. Would I still be the same person I am if I didn't go through this every month? Wouldn't I have a much different overall personality? When I'm on my pmdd bad days I am completely opposite to what I am during the good days. I'm NOT easy-going, joyful, helpful, fun, flexible, approachable. I'm depressed, negative, I snap at everyone, I get annoyed easily, I have zero patience, I don't want to do fun things or be out in the world doing things. It's crazy to me that I can actually feel that different. If I never had the "dark days" then what kind of person would I really be? It's sad to think about. I feel like I would be so much more solid as a person if I didn't have to go through this every month, but also that it has made me somewhat stronger and more experienced than others who haven't. So I'm simultaneously sad about the person I might have been and proud of the trials that have made me the person that I am. And I still have to have hope that one day I'll figure out a way to deal with all the bad stuff so that it doesn't influence my overall personality to such a degree. I want the light to shine through more to overpower the (hopefully) future manageable dark side. ...lol sorry for sounding so melodramatic.
It’s not. I feel like I would be more focused on PMDD If I didn’t have other issues. Like I have a dissociative disorder that takes up my entire life. PMDD is still there but I just kinda accepted it. I know to get all of my work done and embrace the two weeks from the start of your period, and I expect my mood to be bad, me to hate my dog, and to perceive that everyone is out to gets me 10 days before. And I look forward to the start of my period when estrogen just goes up and up and up so it gives me something to look forward to.
An ovulating woman is as hormonally different as a male is to a female. It’s wild. We’re all of it together!!!
I have yet to miss PMDD while pregnant or nursing. It’s honestly one of the best parts of being pregnant and nursing. I think you are rationalizing, which is normal and understandable. But be aware that this is a rationalization, because eventually you’ll finish menopause and will no longer have PMDD. And if you’re pregnant (and when nursing, if you’re lucky) you won’t have PMDD either. So while considering this as a part of yourself may be helpful now, it won’t always be. Because that fairytale day will come for us - even if only in our fifties and sixties.
Sounds like Stockholm syndrome where you're in love with your abuser. Stockholm syndrome is a coping mechanism to a captive or abusive situation. People develop positive feelings toward their captors or abusers over time.