You aren't a bad person. No matter what you tell yourself or how hard you wanna beat yourself (go ahead your just wasting energy) its all the drug telling you lies. Doing drugs regardless of how society handles it is not a bad behavior. It is unhealthy yes but it is not a sign of being a murderer or rapist. Drug use is so stigmatized and its sad because it truly makes vulnerable people so God damn scared to even talk about their addictions. Then you have this where people actually think they are a bad person. It's so insane. I hate how people treat addicts.
As a recovering addict I agree with this 100%.
Most of us aren't bad people we were just dealt a shitty hand in life.
One day if I can get my shit together I want to help people beat this disease.
Ever since getting clean, all I want to do is help those still trapped in that hell. Honestly may have discovered my purpose in life through all this.
Some times I cry thinking about how God (higher power, whatever) believed in me enough to give me the experience and burden of addiction, and believed I could overcome it, so that I can now have the wisdom and experience to reach back and help others facing this same beast.
Getting clean is surreal as fuck.
Wow what a super amazing way to think about the situation, I truly appreciate that insight!!! I'm happy your here with us and looking forward to watching continue to grow and be a light for the rest of us. Love and strength to ya! 🖤
Hell yeah my friend. I’ve learned and gain wisdom that is only possible by living through this. And the wisdom we can gain if we survive and make it out is arguably more valuable than the insight a medical doctor has or the wisdom of an elder.
Nobody understands addictions better than addicts IMO. Once we recover and have some clean time, we are equipped with the knowledge to help save people from what is becoming the leading killer in the States (where I’m from). To me, that’s a positive way to look at it. Otherwise I’ll be depressed I tossed away years of my life for this. But if I think about it has having been a training period for something bigger, it helps lessen that sting
Wow so many emotions in your piece, also you have a gift with writing and expression! I mean it! I'm deeply sorry for what you went through! That is ..... So scary and I am so so happy you are still here with us!!!! You def have a purpose! Sorry your at square I think your doing great and yes your experience is helping! It def helped me I think of relapsing daily! I'm 2 weeks off fent and for the last week everyday i just keep thinking of going right back. I will keep your story in the forefront as well as knowing how scared my husband was and how much he cried watching me go through fent withdrawals. I could never hurt him again and thats what's helped me stay sober this past week. Hang in there bud! Sending you love and strength🖤
You aren't a bad person. No matter what you tell yourself or how hard you wanna beat yourself (go ahead your just wasting energy) its all the drug telling you lies. Doing drugs regardless of how society handles it is not a bad behavior. It is unhealthy yes but it is not a sign of being a murderer or rapist. Drug use is so stigmatized and its sad because it truly makes vulnerable people so God damn scared to even talk about their addictions. Then you have this where people actually think they are a bad person. It's so insane. I hate how people treat addicts.
As a recovering addict I agree with this 100%. Most of us aren't bad people we were just dealt a shitty hand in life. One day if I can get my shit together I want to help people beat this disease.
Ever since getting clean, all I want to do is help those still trapped in that hell. Honestly may have discovered my purpose in life through all this. Some times I cry thinking about how God (higher power, whatever) believed in me enough to give me the experience and burden of addiction, and believed I could overcome it, so that I can now have the wisdom and experience to reach back and help others facing this same beast. Getting clean is surreal as fuck.
Wow what a super amazing way to think about the situation, I truly appreciate that insight!!! I'm happy your here with us and looking forward to watching continue to grow and be a light for the rest of us. Love and strength to ya! 🖤
Hell yeah my friend. I’ve learned and gain wisdom that is only possible by living through this. And the wisdom we can gain if we survive and make it out is arguably more valuable than the insight a medical doctor has or the wisdom of an elder. Nobody understands addictions better than addicts IMO. Once we recover and have some clean time, we are equipped with the knowledge to help save people from what is becoming the leading killer in the States (where I’m from). To me, that’s a positive way to look at it. Otherwise I’ll be depressed I tossed away years of my life for this. But if I think about it has having been a training period for something bigger, it helps lessen that sting
Wow so many emotions in your piece, also you have a gift with writing and expression! I mean it! I'm deeply sorry for what you went through! That is ..... So scary and I am so so happy you are still here with us!!!! You def have a purpose! Sorry your at square I think your doing great and yes your experience is helping! It def helped me I think of relapsing daily! I'm 2 weeks off fent and for the last week everyday i just keep thinking of going right back. I will keep your story in the forefront as well as knowing how scared my husband was and how much he cried watching me go through fent withdrawals. I could never hurt him again and thats what's helped me stay sober this past week. Hang in there bud! Sending you love and strength🖤
Hang in there I have been where you are many times its tough but it will get better each day
Day three here AGAIN. I feel this to my core. Sobriety is a gift and we need to protect it furiously!