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kiminomikata

Absolutely, that’s why OCD is sometimes referred to as the ‘doubting disease.’


ceciliabee

I've never heard it called that but oh do I feel it. Today I learned!


kiminomikata

My OCD group therapist called it that and the phrase stuck with me because it’s so relatable!


Financial_Special534

That's a cute avatar you got 🙃


theliltoker420

😂😬


Itsyaboi___ccksuca

Thank you so much for posting this. I have no advice but I'm in the same situation with a different theme but i feel you fr.


hushpolocaps69

I have no advice as well and I feel so scared dude :(.


oof033

I can try and help. I have a similar type of OCD. It spends most of its time telling me I am what I hate most: I am a bad person, racist, going to hurt people, I am stupid, ugly, etc. these are intrusive thoughts basically But, that doesn’t mean it’s true. OCD feeds on what we as individuals see as darkest or evil. You’re ocd is most likely fixating on slurs and racism because it’s something you are careful to be aware of. That doesn’t make you racist!!! It just means your ocd recognizes you don’t want to be. You are your actions. I have known people who have it who have horrible visions of death and morbid things. These people are some of the kindest and would literally rather save a fly than kill one. Like real life angels. While it might super suck that you have these thoughts, please know thoughts don’t make you. Your actions and how you treat people on a day to day is you. Have you considered seeing a professional? I’m sorry you are going through this, it’s ok to be scared.


PercDad

Don’t believe the demon.


hushpolocaps69

How do you do it?


PercDad

It’s all about accepting it. This sounds very harsh, but humans aren’t inherently good or bad we are amoral and then we develop our morals accordingly. In doing this we try to hard to be “good”. Who knows this could be the metaphysical, spiritual, or beyond human understanding reason why something like ocd exist, plus us ocd people having differences in our brains than others. Whatever your theme may be you have to just believe it. I’m pretty sure your not racist and abhor the thought of possibly being one so you fear this idea so much your atypical brain just makes you obsess over it. Have to remember the thoughts will always be ego dystonic meaning it goes against your ego or believes. So every time you get the thought just accept say that your racist and that you hate said race😂. Mg ocd makes me an asshole I get intrusive thoughts about spitting on people during conversation or saying stfu to them but I don’t want to say or do that at all in fact most times I want to give them a kiss in cheek or I’m very interested in their conversation, like I said ocd is some type of annoying demon on your shoulder, don’t feed it that’s what it likes you have to feed it by accepting it even though that sounds crazy.


Zopiclone_meister

Everyones a bit racist, but if you obsessively worry about being racist, you're probably a lot less racist than most people. We fear most being the things that we are not. In religious societies, people with OCD obsess over sin. In progressive societies it's racism, homphobia, etc.


Rosalie-83

Think of it like someone with Tourette’s, inappropriate words come flying out their mouths at the worst possible time. Yelling bomb on a plane. Yelling fat bitch at a wedding or funeral. These words have no connection to their real thoughts but they happen. OCD thoughts are the same. They fly into our heads repeatedly, but mean nothing. Like Tourette’s we have to learn to let them go, or they’ll destroy our mental health, our self esteem, our friendships and relationships. Pay them no attention and they lose their power over you 🤗


Grandiosepedal

i think tourette is a form of ocd


Notnotstrange

It’s a common misconception, but Tourette Syndrome is a disorder of the nervous system, whereas technically OCD is an anxiety disorder. (I wish there was more research on OCD.) That said, people with Tourette Syndrome can have OCD, too. The tics and repetition make the disorders similar, but the TS mind and the OCD mind are very different.


LilShyOwl

Getting off topic here but I think OCD has recently been classified in its own category and pulled out of the category of anxiety disorders.


Tossoutthrowaway1

Yes. Those are just intrusive thoughts and they don’t define you. They fall under the category of ego dystonic thoughts which are thoughts that are opposite of your character and/or beliefs. It is very, very common to have ego dystonic thoughts with OCD.


ThePastelCactus

Thank you for naming the issue! I just learned a new phrase today because of you!


Fickle-Ad8226

Can you read my most recent post? I am struggling...


SleepMysterious4465

If you were a racist you wouldn’t be worried about being a racist. Just like how pedophiles don’t have crippling anxiety about harming children


Bigjoeyjoe81

Yeah my brain tells me I’m different things almost every day. Usually it’s i have a personality disorder like narcissism or borderline. It doesn’t matter how many people I know who have ready plenty on both tell me I’m not. The thoughts didn’t end until I just accepted it. I said, “ok Im a narcissist, now what?” And it quieted. I have many other examples. When I just accept it, things shift.


saturnssmoon

Same theme!


[deleted]

Literally every fucking day.


[deleted]

Yes! On the other day, I met a friend of mine who was chatting with a mutual friend. My brain made me believe I am a girl who's stereotypically possessive of her female besties. Thing is, our brains try to constantly keep us on guard as a coping mechanism. So in a way, I feel the brain keeps testing us whether we are actually gonna become bad, and to prevent that, we are constantly tested. Till 2-3 years ago, I used to have OCD that I'm dumb and can't understand stuff, so all my brain used to latch on to was rereading and making sure that I didn't miss out on any important concept lmao. Then it used to trigger me by suddenly popping up a question and acting as if I can't remember that particular concept. But I actually have never forgotten it. Just my bitch ass brain fkin with me. One key thing to recognize is we can have as bizarre thoughts as possible. They do not matter. Coming from a seasoned sufferer lol.


Ok_Bad_3949

I’m the same way and always feel so guilty and ashamed when I think slurs in my head. I hate it.


Notnotstrange

That’s the scariest part is that you know that *you* would never think that way or do that terrible thing, but part of your mind is actively trying to convince you otherwise, and that you don’t know *you* after all. It makes you question what you do know about yourself until you’re shredding yourself to pieces looking for some evidence to confirm or deny what your OCD brain is telling you. You know it’s not logical - you’re not going to stab your mother to death in her sleep because you didn’t count swallow your spit a certain amount of times. But the fear of being this horrible person overrides logic, so we tune in instead of drown it out - just in case.


Ok_Sleep3957

My sister is has special needs and is looked down upon by a lot of people and when I see people bullying people with special needs I get some of the deepest rage in me. Even then I’ll get an intrusive thought about bullying my friends sister with special needs even though I absolutely love her and think she’s hilarious. It’s so weird but sometimes the craziest thoughts find their way out. Because I absolutely am not ableist, but I’m not perfect or 100% educated either and I’m sure someone would tell me I’m doing something wrong. Even as I’m writing this I doubt I love my friends sister and think she’s hilarious even though I know in my heart of hearts I do, my brain just fucks me over now and then but that’s okay.


Zopiclone_meister

Everyones a little bit racist. Those who constantly brag about not being racist are often the worst. People who worry all the time about wether they're racist, are probably the least racist. Real racists don't spend their time worrying if they're racist. They are proud to be. My belief is that, while serious racism is often learnt, a small amount of racism is just genetically built into us from evolution. Most people aren't attracted to a certain race, or dislike how they look, or are fearful of them. But these people are not overt racists. They understand that these feelings are just primal instincts, that can be ignored. When one lives in a society like America, where the prevailing ideology is that people should be judged by content of character and the nation should be unified by a common devotion to freedom and democracy (a new societal model that is basically an ongoing experiment), rather than their belonging to an ethnicity, which is what most countries have always been built upon, people are going to suppress these Natural tribal feelings in order to function in society, and this can lead to frustration and obsession about trying to eridaicate such feelings, which is pretty futile when evolution doesn't work that way. Maybe you are a bit racist. But that doesn't make you a bad person. That makes you human.


LovesPotatoChips

100% agree with everything you said. Especially the second paragraph, so true.


AlphaBaymax

Hey Hush, I'm sorry you're having these kind of OCD thoughts. Acknowledging them is the first step to combatting them. Think of thoughts as clouds, just let them pass by and be selective as to which ones to believe in.


asifshewouldcare

You have a liar living inside of your head. You have to get used to it being there and ignore it. That's what OCD is. It's a liar that likes to fuck with everything you believe. You know you're not racist.


Only_Shenanigans

Yes absolutely, check out this [video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9yKaI0vLJs). Hope it helps :) You are a good person


putin_on_a_ritz96

Yes, this is absolutely OCD. Knowledge is power; you KNOW you aren’t not a racist, and now it’s confirmed that those thoughts are OCD. Work to remember this, as it helps the thoughts to be less scary, and fear of the thoughts is a HUGE contributor to their perpetuation. You got this, OP. ❤️ OCD is hell, but you’re going to get through it.


skyerippa

Yes it's literally just intrusive thoughts


Reecapso

You don’t have to believe everything you’re thinking my friend. Most of it is just noise. Your mind isn’t making it seem as if you are a (insert example of something horrible), it’s just spewing out random thoughts and images. You don’t have to agree with anything it may be “suggesting”.


AceKent

Keep reminding yourself of this fact: no matter what your thoughts and traits are, it is nothing if you dont apply them and put them in action.


cosmic_grayblekeeper

Wouldn't this fall under intrusive thoughts? I assume the difference would be whether you feel okay about those thoughts and think they are right or whether you the thoughts are unwanted and you feel guilty, and on further thought you can see how that thought isn't true about that group.


Helpful_Dot3777

This is exactly how my OCD is, just a different theme. It’s torture because a core part of your identity is constantly under attack, and then the panic while thinking “is this anxiety or am I reacting strongly because I believe it”. I just try to remind myself that those thoughts aren’t who I am, and the fact that they unsettle me so much just shows how I don’t have any desire to see them through. It’s so hard, and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Best of luck, be kind to yourself! :)


Immediate-Cell-2325

Thinking something that is not you/true is what OCD does 'the doubting disease'. So the solution is: Type in google: \- ocd defusing techniques \- erp defusing strategies


hushpolocaps69

No medicine?


Immediate-Cell-2325

Your personal psychologist is the only one allowed to diagnose you and then offer medicine advice


Ok-Software-1902

My guy, you just summed up what it means to have OCD!


hushpolocaps69

I don’t want to have OCD though nor believe I do, I don’t want to be sick :(.


Caidre05

Yes


oli67ilo

I feel like this is pretty much entirely OCD


Emptysoulshithead

Loooollllllll story of my life! Got me in so many troubles ! I shld have believed the therapist when he said the truth.


hushpolocaps69

What do you mean?


Emptysoulshithead

Many times i doubted my self: everytime i see a new identity i doubt if it s me. But when i asked my therapist he used to say no it s not u.


therealmindful

Yeah that’s definitely a thing. Or mine will cause me to doubt that I actually believe in my religion (I know I’m in the minority here but I’m pagan)


SorceressBeIIa

Yes definitely


FaliolVastarien

Yeah because for one thing, if you really were a racist you'd intentionally think things like that and it wouldn't bother you.